I love eSports. I'll admit, I'm not a huge fan and I've only been into it for two years, more recently so this year. But I am a fan, and I love it, and I am getting more into it. Mainly, I am huge into League of Legends. Not only do I play League, but I watch games by the pros from all over the world, and I even watch their world championship event.

When I started playing League, I was taught how to play mid lane. I'm not the greatest at laning in general, and I'm not the worst. But I play League with friends majority of the time, anyway, so I'm just sticking around to have fun. And watching the professionals play is something I consider fun! My boyfriend, after I became well enough at mid lane that I gathered the basic knowledge and now needed improvement, once linked me to a montage video of a Korean professional midlaner who went by the name of Faker, and played for SKT-T1.

Immediately, I fell in love (in a different sort of way!). Awkward on camera and in interviews, with a shy demeanor, Faker has a presence when he plays that is not only intimidating but awe-inspiring. Some people call him a "God" and while I agree he is an impressive player who is pretty insane at times, to me—he's just Lee "Faker" Sang-hyeok. And I am his fan.

But I also have always had my eye on another SKT player—MaRin, the top laner. While I don't play top lane myself, and I'm not very good at the mechanics of the game, I have always admired MaRin. He's a huge team player and very good at shot calling. This year was his year to shine. Especially during Worlds. Some of the plays MaRin called, initiated, and otherwise were just...wow. On top of it, I love MaRin out of game, too. He's humble and seems very kind-hearted.

Now, the top performer of the year and MVP of the 2015 World Championship...is leaving SKT-T1. Why? Well, no one seems to know. All anyone can do at the moment is speculate. MaRin, while twenty-four, only has two years of professional League of Legends under his belt. And his performance during the 2015 season was top-notch. He's now considered one of the best top laners of the world.

But that best top laner of the world is just leaving.

Where to? Why? I need answers. My heart is aching due to this announcement. Which has apparently been known earlier in November—however I'm just finding out about it today, and I'm extremely saddened. Not just for the fact that MaRin is leaving my favorite team in general, but also because no one seems to know where he's leaving to. Is he off to another team? Or is he on to the next big thing? I mean twenty-four years old isn't exactly young, but it isn't old either.

I just want to know where a player that I fell in love so deeply with in the 2015 season is headed off to, and why. I just want answers. I seriously almost cried earlier today.

Either way, I suppose I should say that I love MaRin enough to support whatever decisions he comes to. Whether his departure is permanent or whether he's changing his loyalty, I will always appreciate what he brought to SKT. If he is leaving permanently, and retirement is in store, then I can only thank him for an amazing two years. He made me love eSports more and more as I watched him play. If he finds a new team, I will continue to support him and I will stand behind his choices.

Still, I'm gonna need a tub of ice cream. Maybe that wine ice cream I see all over Facebook...